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What is BPD?

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Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is a mental health disorder that affects approximately 1-2% of the general population. It is a complex condition that can manifest in a variety of symptoms and behaviors, making it difficult to diagnose and treat. People with BPD often experience intense and unstable emotions, difficulty forming and maintaining relationships, impulsive behavior, and distorted self-image.

Symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder

The symptoms of BPD can be grouped into four main categories: emotional instability, distorted self-image, impulsive behavior, and difficulty with relationships. These symptoms can manifest in a variety of ways and can vary in intensity from person to person.

Emotional Instability

People with BPD often experience intense and unstable emotions that can change rapidly and unexpectedly. They may feel empty, anxious, or angry, and have difficulty regulating their emotions. This emotional instability can lead to impulsive behavior, self-harm, and suicidal ideation.

Distorted Self-Image

Individuals with BPD may have a distorted self-image, which can cause them to feel insecure or unworthy. They may experience a sense of emptiness or feel as though they do not have a strong sense of self. This can lead to self-destructive behavior or a desire to please others at the expense of their own needs.

Impulsive Behavior

People with BPD may engage in impulsive behavior, such as substance abuse, reckless driving, overspending, or binge eating. They may struggle with self-control and act on impulses without considering the consequences. These impulsive behaviors can put them in dangerous situations and may have negative consequences for their relationships, work, and personal life.

Difficulty with Relationships

Individuals with BPD often have difficulty forming and maintaining stable relationships. They may have intense and unstable relationships with friends, family, and romantic partners. They may fear abandonment and may act out in response to this fear. They may also have a tendency to idealize or devalue others, leading to unstable relationships.

Causes of Borderline Personality Disorder

The exact cause of BPD is not yet fully understood, but researchers believe that a combination of genetic, environmental, and biological factors may play a role in its development.

Genetics: Studies have found that BPD may be heritable, meaning that there is a genetic component to the disorder. Individuals with a family history of BPD are more likely to develop the disorder themselves.

Environmental factors: Childhood trauma, abuse, neglect, and unstable family environments have been linked to the development of BPD. Traumatic experiences can alter brain development and affect a person’s ability to regulate emotions and form healthy relationships.

Biological factors: Studies have found that people with BPD have differences in brain structure and function, specifically in areas of the brain that regulate emotions and impulse control.

Treatment for Borderline Personality Disorder

Treatment for BPD typically involves a combination of therapy, medication, and support from family and friends. The goal of treatment is to help individuals manage their symptoms and develop healthy coping strategies.

Therapy: Psychotherapy is the primary treatment for BPD. Various types of therapy can be effective, including Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT), Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT), and Schema Therapy. These therapies focus on helping individuals regulate their emotions, improve their relationships, and develop a more positive self-image.

Medication: Medication may be prescribed to help manage symptoms of BPD, such as depression, anxiety, and impulsivity. Antidepressants, mood stabilizers, and antipsychotics may be used to treat these symptoms.

Support: Support from family and friends can be an important part of treatment for BPD. Support groups and peer-led organizations, such as the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) or the Borderline Personality Disorder Resource Center, can also be helpful for individuals with BPD and their loved ones.

Self-help: Self-help strategies can also be useful for managing symptoms of BPD. These may include developing healthy habits, such as exercise and healthy eating, practicing mindfulness and meditation, and engaging in hobbies and activities that bring joy and fulfillment.

Challenges of Treating Borderline Personality Disorder

Treating BPD can be challenging due to the complex nature of the disorder. Individuals with BPD may struggle with feelings of shame and inadequacy, making it difficult for them to seek help or engage in therapy. They may also have difficulty trusting others, which can make it challenging to form a therapeutic relationship.

In addition, there is a stigma surrounding BPD, which can make it difficult for individuals to access the care and support they need. Many people with BPD may be misdiagnosed or treated for other mental health conditions, such as depression or anxiety, rather than receiving a proper diagnosis of BPD.

Despite these challenges, treatment for BPD can be effective. With proper treatment and support, individuals with BPD can learn to manage their symptoms, form healthy relationships, and lead fulfilling lives.

Conclusion

Borderline Personality Disorder is a complex mental health disorder that can have a significant impact on a person’s life. Symptoms of BPD can include emotional instability, distorted self-image, impulsive behavior, and difficulty with relationships. The causes of BPD are not fully understood, but genetic, environmental, and biological factors may play a role in its development.

Treatment for BPD typically involves a combination of therapy, medication, and support from family and friends. However, treating BPD can be challenging due to the complex nature of the disorder and the stigma surrounding it. Despite these challenges, with proper treatment and support, individuals with BPD can learn to manage their symptoms and lead fulfilling lives. If you or someone you know is struggling with symptoms of BPD, it is important to seek help from a mental health professional.

Disassociating and grounding

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Disassociating and grounding

When I got up this morning, nothing felt real. It was as if I was still asleep and in a dream. I didn’t feel like I was actually alive. It is called disassociation and there are skills that can be used to ground yourself and get back in touch with reality.

Skills

I couldn’t remember the skills required for grounding, so Google to the rescue. I found some articles that reminded me of the things I should try.

https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/dissociativeliving/2015/01/use-grounding-techniques-when-dissociating/

https://www.verywellmind.com/grounding-exercises-425376

I read the articles and tried a few of the suggestions. The one that worked for me this morning was a physical sensation. I clutched an ice cold can of Pepsi. I could feel the palm of my hand getting colder the longer I held the can. I concentrated on the physical sensation of the cold, and it helped me.

Next time you are feeling disassociated, look at the articles above and try some of the suggestions.

Good luck!

What is BPD – Borderline Personality Disorder

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A pretty scary sounding diagnosis. ‘Personality Disorder’, the name just screams out to people to run away from anyone diagnosed with BPD. We are not scary, we have many positive features. We view the world and relationships differently, we ‘feel’ more. BPD’s are not dangerous or manipulative, which is how we are sometimes described.

Please what ever you do, do NOT read through the symptoms and characteristics of BPD and diagnose  yourself or anyone else. If you, or someone you know may show symptoms of BDP, get an appointment with a psychiatrist. BPD can be a difficult condition to diagnose, and it has to be done by a professional. There are similar diagnoses to BPD and it can be confusing.

Research

When researching any medical condition, check your sources to make sure that they are respected and reliable. A good start is to look for .gov websites and pages, like the one below.

https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/borderline-personality-disorder/index.shtml

The above page is a good place to start. It explains the disorder in relatively plain language. Below is another good, simple explanation, this time from a UK website.

What is borderline personality disorder? Everything you need to know about the condition

Don’t believe everything you read!

There are many websites that preach doom and gloom for BPD. Don’t believe them! BPD is a treatable condition, not by drugs, but by therapy. I will say it again, it can be treated, and the life of BPD people can be improved. It can be hard work, but so worth it. You are worth it.

The first step is to get a good diagnosis from a professional. Sure! There are drugs that can help with some of the symptoms, but therapy is where the healing and recovery takes place.

 

 

Why this blog is here

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I was first diagnosed with BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder), in my 50’s. I always knew that there was something wrong with me, that I was different, that my thinking processes were not ‘normal’. I was first diagnosed with PTSD and depression way back in about 2007. I was given meds and referred to a psychiatrist. The meds worked for a while and made a small difference. I ended up in hospital after a Xanax overdose. I was given more and more meds, and eventually changed psychiatrists twice. Fast forward to 2016. I started therapy again and saw a new psychiatrist. She sent me for a psychological evaluation. It lasted three hours and really didn’t give much useful information. The diagnosis was Generalized anxiety disorder with elements of PTSD, major depressive disorder and personality issues.

I was sent for a further psychological evaluation. This one lasted a solid seven hours and included an EEG. The results from this in depth evaluation were PTSD – Chronic, BPD, Generalized anxiety disorder, social phobia – unspecified, OCD – unspecified and major depressive disorder, recurrent severe without psychotic episodes.

The diagnosis all pointed to BPD being the central part, with the other issues all being part of the make up of BPD.

On January 27th 2018, I walked out of the house and drove to a parking lot where I took a large overdose of medications that I had been saving for the suicide. I was discovered and taken to the hospital slipping in and out of consciousness. More about this in another post. I am writing this diary to try and help my recovery, try to remove the stigma of BPD, and help others who are interested or have the same diagnosis of BPD.